Redecorating My Mind – A Journey Back to Self
When love, obsession, and identity blur; Redecorating My Mind, dives deep into the raw experience of losing oneself in another. With soul-stirring vocals and deeply personal lyrics, ZENON paints a vivid picture of what it means to tear down the walls someone else built in your mind, and to redecorate with your own truth. Each track reveals the layers of heartbreak, self-discovery, and the painful yet liberating process of reclaiming one’s thoughts, emotions, and inner space. This is more than music; it’s a transformation.
Lyrics
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Had my expectations lowered last week
Face to face when we talked
I could see
Something in your eyes
Wasn’t gonna work right this time
My heart it dropped
Hit the floor
To my feet
Couldn’t breathe
Made me feeling like there was something I
Coulda seen
Coulda done
Coulda said
Differently
But I
Shoulda known better
Shouldn’a got attached
Should’ve cut the tie, when I had the chance
Wish I’d known better, before I left your place
I got one more thing I need to say
Whenever you fool with love
It’s gonna fool with you too
If you wanna fool with love
I hope you get what’s coming to you
If you wannna go ahead then break my heart
Then lie to me and just restart with someone new
If you wanna Fool with love
Boy I hope it makes a fool out of you
Baby even though you were so bad to me
I couldn’t tell if I should really leave
Had me questioning myself thought you were someone else
With the way you put your hands on me
I thought maybe this time it’d be different it’d be right
We could fix it, we’d be fine
You’d be mine, we’d fall in line
But you had your own intentions that were different
Oh I
Shoulda known better
Shouldn’a got attached
Should’ve cut the tie when I had the chance
Wish I’d known better before I left your place
I got one more thing I need to say
Whenever you fool with love
It’s gonna fool with you too
If you wanna fool with love
I hope you get what’s coming to you
If you wanna go ahead then break my heart
Then lie to me and just restart with someone new
If you wanna fool with love
Boy I hope it makes a fool out of you
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Seen you walking round town
Like you been crowned the king
Of everything
On your high horse now
Don’t wanna show your face round here
Should wear your hat low
Everyone knows
You got two sides to you babe
I anticipate you know your way around a game
The way you’re playin so unfair
The way you’re lying that you care
The way you take your self pity too far into despair
Only when you want it
Only when you need it
That’s when I hear you say that
You got it
I wanna see how
You flaunt it
All you do is talk and talk about it
And I ain’t heard nothing but nothing but nothing but nothing but
Bad bad bad news about you baby
Been a long time coming back around on who you claim to be
Nobody believed me when I said you were dangerous
Dangerous
I see it your eyes
See it your smile
See it when you cry
Only when you want it
That’s when I hear you say that
You got it
I wanna see how you flaunt it
All you do is talk and talk about it
I ain’t heard nothing but nothing but nothing but
Bad bad bad news about you baby
You got it
I wanna see how you flaunt it
All you do is talk and talk about it
I ain’t heard nothing but nothing but nothing but
Bad bad bad news about you baby
You got it
(You got it, You got It)
I wanna see how you flaunt it
(Oh, oh the way you flaunt it baby)
All you do is talk and talk about it
I ain’t heard nothing but nothing but nothing but
Bad bad bad news about you baby
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I just want a taste, of you
Peaches and white lace, deja vu
Flavoured cherry lip balm
Covered in kisses all night night night
Yea
I just want a taste
Of you
Been up till morning cause I want to do this slowly
You wanna lick it, tongue and cheek so baby show me
No don’t be fighting it
Wanna feel you grinding in the dark
Yea
You got me calling out
Speed dial, quick turn around
Baby when you move like that
I want you crawling back (back back)
I want you crawling
I just want a taste (a taste, a taste, a taste)
Of you
Peaches and white lace (a taste, a taste)
Deja vu
Flavoured cherry lip balm
Covered in kisses all night night night
Yea
I just want a taste
Just a taste
Of you
Ah, Ah
I wanna kiss the flavour off you
The cherry I can taste it on you
Soft, sweet and slow
I’m about to spend my patience on you
Anticipation the more that you want
Imma keep you waiting longer
With my lips all over your body just make the temptation stronger
Exhilaration my honour
Tonight let me lead
I got whatever you need
Scratch me or bite me, you can do whatever you please
(Please)
Lemme leave you at ease
Lights low, let everything breathe
So good I might drop to my knees cause
I just want Ah
a taste (a taste, a taste, a taste)
Of you
Peaches and white lace (a taste, a taste)
Deja vu
Flavoured cherry lip balm
Covered in kisses all night night night (night night)
Yea
I just want a taste
(Taste babe)
Of you
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Last night you said forever babe
Did you mean it, is that what you meant to say?
Is it a heat of the moment kind thing with you?
Outta sight outta mind is how I feel with you
If I’m not
Right there wrapping my arms around your neck
Feels like you’d rather be with somebody else instead
So I flip on you
Gotta switch on you
Can’t be played a fool
It's not like me to lose myself inside of somebody else
But I fold into a shell of all the love that I’ve felt
Got me catching my breath so I can deal with it
Please
What the hell is going on?
He’s so fine
That boy’s so
So fine
So fine
So fine
Na na na na na na
He’s so fine
That boy’s so
So fine
So fine
So fine
I’m foolish when I fall I fall hard I fall fast
When I’m in love I feel like my heart is on blast (it won’t last)
No, I crash and burn every time that I turn into something I’m not
When I love I love hard, it’s not all for not
When I love I love right, 'cause it's all I got
When I give I don’t tend to take a lot
Yea you’ll know what I mean straight from the start
Baby if you look into my eyes you’ll find I don’t hide behind a disguise to shade the truth of what I truly feel like
Got these past demons under my wings
Got things (I don’t wanna think about)
Yea the doubt it brings
When I find that I don’t take into account all the traits like his lies, or his smile, or my laugh, if we’ll last
But I notice that all my photographs are of him
He’s so
fine
That boy’s so
So fine
So fine
So fine
Na na na na na na
He’s so fine
That boy’s so
So fine
So fine
So fine
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Dulling my soul to your taste
Turning good love to chores
Living to carry your weight
Baby I want more
I’m not running from my problems I’m running (running from, running from, running from) from yours
Past might catch up to me but hell I’m cleaning out your drawers
Your shit get lost with it
Don’t talk, just walk with it
Oh
If you can’t love on this
Go talk your shit
Get lost with it
Oh
And I spent so much time apologizing for who I am
I can’t stand (I can’t stand it)
The rain against my window pane (against my window)
Knowing things will never be the same
(Yea, yea, yea)
The sky is crying out your name
And all I can think is
When did I change?
(When did I, when did I, when did I)
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(Letting me leave, letting me know)
(Letting me leave, letting me know)
(Letting me leave, letting me know)
Whispered sorry’s under your breath
Doesn’t mean you mean them
Stories are just another word for lies
Somehow I reconcile my feelings
But it’s hard to keep this all inside
Won’t you go and let go of the past
Can’t you see that we won’t last
Let Me Leave
Let Me Leave
(Letting me leave, letting me know)
Empty thoughts are my secret
(Letting me leave, letting me know)
And you don’t even know how hard it is to keep that all to myself
No no no babe
Somehow I let go of all I mean when, I let it lift me up and carry me away
Won’t you go and let go of the past
Can’t you see that we won’t last
Let Me Leave
Just Let Me Leave
Let Me Leave
Let Me Leave
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When did I lose my way
Ah, Ah
You know they say good things don’t come easy
And I know that I ain’t been at it long
But I’m starting to feel that I’m weaker than I am strong
We all got a story we want to tell
And I know, I know, I know, I know, I know mine very well
Took me too long to see the truth
That what lied so deep beneath was a lie too
I grow so tired of faking it all the while
Oh, I grow so tired of lying while I smile
I can’t do it no more, I can’t do it no more, I can’t do it no more
Gotta see it through
Through my reflection (through my reflection)
And I apologize for what I didn’t know
On a road that I walk as I go it all alone
No one’s there to hold my hand but that’s the way I made it be
So I can take some time to learn a bit bout me
I grow so tired of faking it all the while
Why do I grow so tired of lying while I smile
I can’t do it no more, I can’t do it no more, I can’t do it no more
Gotta see it through
Through my reflection (through my reflection)
Gotta see it through
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Water over me
I burn or I freeze
The steam in the air
Is filled with my tears
Then the minutes pass
I don’t seem to care
And the tile sweats
Out all my fears
Reminiscing on the shower floor
Mourning who I was before
I let these feeling wash over me
Reminiscing on the shower floor
Mourning who I was before
I lost the real me
Heat builds and I can’t move
I’m stuck inside an endless loop
My hands I know ain’t clean
I’ve done things that I just don’t mean
Outgrown who I once was
Got me trying to scrub it off
Reminiscing on the shower floor
Mourning who I was before
I let these feeling wash over me
Reminiscing on the shower floor
Mourning who I was before
I lost the real me
Wash over me
Album Credits: Zenon - Writer, Composer, Vocals / Dempsey Bolton - Composer, Production & Mix / Reuben Ghose - Mastering / Bev Soriano, Photo / ilen Cover Art.
Credits and Acknowledgements for their contribution to specific singles: K-Riz on Cherry Lip Balm, Natalie Inga, Sarah Good Medicine, Sallie Mae, Kayla Williams - Gang vocals, Anthony Ka - Trumpet, Hemen (The Blue) on So Fine. Sallie Mae - BGV on Shower Floor. Jesse Aaron Shire - Bass on Bad Bad News. Oliver Denis & ilen - Photo, Cover Art & Lyric videos on the four singles.
4 singles FWL, So Fine, Shower Floor and Bad Bad News were released ahead of the album. Check out the lyric videos and the track single epk.
About ZENON
ZENON is a bi-racial, non-binary singer/songwriter forging a path with Soul. Performance charisma and soul filled vocals, they turn vulnerability into verse and chaos into poetry, creating music that mirrors real life, unfiltered and ever changing. A winner of 4 YYC Music Awards and Western Canada Music Award Nominee, Semi-Finalist with the International Songwriting Contest, Winner of Queer Collective Outloud, has recently composed music for a project with Calgary Opera and is co-creating and composing for a musical. More info can be found here ZENON EPK.
Album Lyric Videos
Album Singles cover art
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